The Most Interesting Stories of All Nations
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Julian Hawthorne >> The Most Interesting Stories of All Nations
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"'Here is the tower-room, my boy!' did he whisper in a husky voice.
'Here is the tower-room, and within our family secret. Do you see
it?'
"That is all he said, but when I looked at him I immediately
perceived the secret; everything was clear before me and I had a
presentiment that something was nearing its end, something about to
break.
"Father walked up and down; and then he stopped and pointed to this
picture; to this very picture.
"'Did you ever thoroughly look at your ancestors? They are all
from the Orzos. If you scrutinize their faces you will recognize
in them your father, yourself, and your grandfather; and if you
ever read their documents, which were left to us--there they are in
the box--then you will know that they are just the same material as
we are. Their way of thinking was the same as ours and so were
their desires, their wills, their lives, and deaths. We had among
them soldiers, clergymen, scientists, but not even one great,
celebrated man, although their talent, their strength almost tore
them asunder.
"'In every one of them the family curse took root: not one of them
could be a great man, neither my father nor yours.'
"Then I felt as if something horrible was coming from his lips. My
breath almost ceased. Father did not finish what he was going to
say, but stopped and listened for a minute.
"'I was my father's only hope,' he went on after a while; 'I too
was born talented and prepared for great things, but the Orzos'
destiny overtook me, and you see now what became of me. I looked
into the tower-room. You know what it contains? You know what the
name of our secret is? He who saw this secret lost faith in
himself. For him it would have been better not to have come into
this world at all. But I loved to live and did not want to abandon
all my hopes. I married your mother; she consoled me until you
were born, and then I regained my delight in life. I knew what I
had to keep before my eyes to bring up my son to be such a man as
his father could not be.
"'I acquiesced when you left for the foreign countries; then your
letters came. I made a special study of every sentence and of
every word of it, for I did not want to trust my reason. I thought
the first time that the fault was in me; that I saw unnecessary
phantoms. But it wasn't so, for what I read out of your words was
our destiny, the curse of the Orzos; from the way of your thinking,
I found out that everything is in vain; you too turned your head
backward, you too looked into yourself and noticed there the thing
that makes the perceiver sterile forever. You did not even notice
what you have done; you could not grasp it with your reason, but
the poison is already within you.'
"'It cannot be, father!' I broke out, terrified.
"But he sadly shook his head. 'I am old; I cannot believe in
anything now. I wish you were right, and would never come to know
what I know. God bless you, my son; it is getting late, and I am
getting tired.'
"It struck me that he was trying to cover his disbelief with
sarcasm. Both of us were without sleep that night. At dawn there
was silence in his room. I bitterly thought, 'When will I go to
rest?' When I went into his room in the morning he was lying in
his bed. All was over. He had taken poison, and written his
farewell on a piece of paper. His last wish was that no one should
ever know under what circumstances he died."
Balint left off speaking and gazed with outstretched eyes toward
the window in the darkness. I slowly went to him and put my hand
upon his shoulder. He started at my touch.
"I more than once thought of the woman who could be the mother of
my son. How many times have I been tempted to fulfill my father's
last wish! But at such a time it has always come to my mind that I
too might have such a son, who would cast into his father's teeth
that he was a coward and a selfish man; that he sacrificed a life
for his illusive hopes.
"No! I won't do it. I won't do it. I am the last of the Orzos.
With me this damned family will die out. My fathers were cowards
and rascals. I do not want anybody to curse my memory."
I kissed Balint's wet forehead; I knew that this was the last time
I would see him. The next day I left the castle, and the day
after, his death was made public. He committed suicide, like his
father. He was the last Orzo, and I turned about the coat of arms
above his head.
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